if i must see you in my dreams, please don't wake me...

well...bcoz of my laziness in updating my daily life..
i cause misunderstanding especially to amily
sorry ya darling..
well...i'm going to UCSI not TARC..
eheh...dun worry le..i'm still travelling every morning wd suyen to college...hahahaha
coolness!! planning to rent room together somewhr near sumore.. eheh

i found out something i dun wanna find out...
which i totally forgotten and chucked it aside..
everytime talk to dadah also she'll dig out all my true feelings n make me accept the fact..
and face the truth..no hiding..
sigh..

9 more days till january intake begins..
i made a painful decision today..
a decision i know that i will regret and have to work hard for..
a decision that will change my life..
9 days more..i panicked..i had to decide for my parents which college i wanna go..
i can't wait anymore..
i can't stand the stress..
dad wants me to go TARC..
mom wants me to go TAYLORS..
i...wanna go HELP..
but we finally toned down to HELP or TARC..
and today..i couldn't wait anymore..
i hate TARC...
i said it before.i die also dun wanna go TARC..
today...on xmas eve..
i filled in TARC's application form..
in tears..
it's the easiest way for me..
and i noe my dad doesn't wanna spend so much on my Alevels..
so chose...TARC..
i'll regret my decision..
but it's my responsibility..
for i had made the decision..
on my own will..
that i chose TARC..
i chose it..
i endure it..
i guess it's for the best..
i think.. today..
i grew up a little..
it is a path i'm willing to shed tears for..
to make my dad happy..
and i'm gonna have to work for it..
it's my future..
i want that degree..
i gotta be tough to endure life..
because in life..u always get wat u don't want..
and not get wat u want..

thailand was..okay le...i went there...no..i reached there...at...can't remember..at night..coz thai an hour earlier than msia ma..so aniwei..i reached there at night den check into the hotel...
had a double decker bus ..so chunted..went by tour ma..den we went....to alot of rubbish shows that were wasting our time like the stupid bee farm, snake farm, crocodile farm, herb farm, the stupid zoo... then we went to many shopping areas..
eh!! who said the things were like drop dead cheap? they were SLIGHTLY cheaper only la..
and those things..can be seen in msia itself..jsut that in thailand got MORE varieties and designs.
etc la..i bought some souvenirs la...haha...how can i not mann? i miss you guys so much!!
yalah..i wanted to buy y'all slippers but guess wat..when i reached there...YOU PPL FORGOT TO TELL ME UR SHOE SIZE!! stupid...so funny k!! but i got something else instead...and den...we went to the theme park lo...it's called DREAM WORLD ...funny rite? it was fun!! and the queue wasn't as long as genting..
not only that le..the rides are long and the "operator" he was like a DJ...he puts the ride as long as he likes and makes funny jokes and teases the people and all...damn long mann the rides... most things in the theme park are cheap...cotton candy..twice the size in msia ..only 150 baht..which is 1.50 la..cheap!! and the soft toys..in genting..they're all..SO FREAKING TINY..like..one hand..in DreamWorld..they're all half ur body..like..your upper body..they're all HUGE mann!! and so cute!!
den got wat le>? hmm....we went to the beach!!! in some island..sat speed boat..i sat in front..coz the sea was rough...IT wAS LIKE A ROLLER COASTER MANN!! even more syok than a roller coaster!! den...just go to the beach..read ERAGON!! den balik..oh..play a bit in the sea ..stuff like that.. hahaha...
okla..nothing much la...i still like BALI better =P aniwei..got lotsa things happened la..but forget about it...all these trips..not like u can always remember everything so.. =P hehe
ciaoz~~

i dun like disappointing ppl..making promises i'm not sure if i can fulfil them..
making hopes n dreams but nvr being able to make it happen...
and it's the 2nd time? but...the bad thing is... i actually wanted to go..
i actually..wanted to go..i actually made an effort to make it happen..i actually did all that i could..
all that i want to..whole day..just doing that..
wat happened? i tot i dun wanna go through this again? wat am i hiding from? wat am i avoiding from? who am i trying to kid? i'm leaving 2mrw night.. i make it sound like..i'm totally leaving n not coming back...because that's just how i feel...and when i'm back..no one is around anymore...everyone is away..i've no one to celebrate chrsitmas with..and no one to celebrate new year with...
schooling was more fun....there is always sum1 there...
and to think..i actually wish..i'm still going thru SPM now...
wat has happened? just a month..was all it takes..a month of almost everyday...
starting college nxt year...january intake and i still dunno whr my parents wanna send me..either TAR or HELP..i die also dun wanna go TAR..i dun wanna go there...
but life has many paths n things u dunno that might happen...

i wonder..if i can wake up in peace tomorrow...
i wonder..if i'll remember wat was supposed to happen...
i wonder..if i'll be still like this...
i can't sleep...why does it have such a big effect on me?
it's not supposed to..i'm hurting myself...
i can't sleep....i've a flight 2mrw..i haven't packed a single thing..
i need to sleep..i just came back from camerons today..
i need sleep.....but i can't sleep..
WHY THE F*CK M I DOING THIS TO MYSELF..

something happened that i never wanna admit..
and i'm not in a good mood but....today made me realize..
i wish suyen didn't bang it into my head...sigh..
i'm leaving to thailand 2mrw night.....
i'll be back on the 23rd........sigh..i dun even have the guts to type it out..
or to even admit it out...why ar???
somebody kick me pls...i'm unable to be contacted till 23rd..anyone miss me??
when i come back..i'll be alone...........celebrating xmas alone..new year alone...
why does the sun..going shining?
i'm going cuckoo..sigh..

yeah mann!! this morning...we went basketball..and also played badminton on the bball court..
me,abby,dadah,azuwa dan suyen..along wd andrew n chuan zhou...HAHA..IT'S WAS FUN!!
we played till like 9 something den badminton till 10 something 11? so fun le....
and the thing was...WE PLAYED BETTER TODAY THAN SATURDAY WD THE JUNIORS...consider urself lucky juniors!!~ =P
it was fun.....den we played den.....hahahaha...the two stupid fellows went n pee in the bush!! HAHAHAHA...funny rite? i can't believe it mann!! after that we went to eat at A&W...azuwa burst in n tapau food suddenly..HAHAHA..so funny.... sigh......fun fun fun...i love basketball!!
badminton is just as fun!!
but guess wat..my foot didn't hurt on the court..after A&W i was back to limping again..hahaa...
maybe i should really put my legs to rest.. i play bball till sot d...or today..bball n badminton..HAHA...

basketball...was just SO FUN eventho we lost but HEY!! we memang karat d ma...
u juniors wait till we get back our skills...den we'll trash u....WORSE THAN YDAY!! ahhaha..
i syok sendiri =P
but there r prices u gotta pay for torturing them..sigh... besides than the usual body ache on saturdays after bball..i dunno wat's wrong with my knee... it hurts when i put it straight and..
sigh...i'm limping...and i forgot to wear my ankle protector n i almost twisted my left ankle ...
it just hurt a bit but..THANK GOD it didn't get twisted again..or i'll be in crutches again...
sigh..but...BASKETBALL is worth all this so..hahaha..cut the crap and ENJOY since there's no more SPM ~

6th of december...
I OFFICIALLY finish SPM today!!~
I WON SUYEN IN BACKGAMMON for the first time!!~
and .....I FREAKING DROVE A FREAKING CAR!!!

yeh yeh!!~ SPM is finalyl freaking over mann!!
thinking back... just think/imagine~
we're never :
- gonna go to school to study again
- never seeing the same old faces every morning again
- never wearing that uniform again
- might never be seeing those faces of assunta EVER AGAIN
- never gonna break school rules again
- never gonna gang up n prank ppl
- no more backstabbing teachers together
- many more things!!

just think back..all those memories u've left behind..
all those "forbidden marks" u left in sch that'll stay forever..
those times where we make stupid n lame jokes n laugh like shit over them
they're all but memories...
we might never be seeing some frens anymore..
SPM maybe a relieving thing to get through but... it's also a sign to tell u..

35 days to SPM and wat am i doing?
loafing around...going online..downloading anime..listening to songs..worst of all..
i have been... RO-ING!!! brilliant i tell u..just brilliant...
now only i panic...now only i scared...now only i'm talking bout..shit wat's in my head?
nothing!! absolutely hollow, empty.... crap..and i'm spending time..blogging...
sigh...bye bye then..

Jay Chou

Qian Li Zhi Wai

wo yan ru xuan ai // feng ling ru cang hai // wo deng yan gui lai

shi jian bei an pai // uan yi chang yi wai // ni qiao ran zou kai

gu shi zai cheng wai // nong wu san bu kai // kan bu qing dui bai

ni ting bu chu lai // feng sheng bu chun zai // shi wo zai gan kai

#mong xing lai // shi shui zai chuang tai // ba jie ju da kai

na bao ru chan yi de wei lai // jing bu qi shui lai cai#

*wo song ni li kai // qian li zhi wai // ni wu sheng hei bai

chen mo nian dai // huo xu bu gai // tai yao yuan de xiang ai

wo song ni li kai // tian ya zhi wai // ni shi fou hai zai

qin sheng he lai // sheng si nan cai // yong yi sheng // qu deng dai*

wen lei sheng ru lin // xun li hua bai // zhi de yi hang // qing tai

tian zai shan zhi wai // yu luo hua tai // wo liang bin ban bai

wen lei sheng ru lin // xun li hua bai // zhi de yi hang // qing tai

tian zai shan zhi wai // yu luo hua tai // wo deng ni lai

yi sheng liu li bai // tou ming zhe chen ai // ni wu xia de ai

ni cong yu zhong lai // shi hua le bei ai // wo lin shi xian zai

fu rong shui mian cai // chuan hang ying you zai // ni que bu hui lai

bei sui yue fu gai // ni shuo de hua kai // guo qu cheng kong bai

Repeat #**

this is a very nice song rite??? actually..according to some chinese pro dude... coz my mandarin is like shit.. this song lyrics is actually a poetry..... so chun rite? that's why it's kinda hard to understand and get the actual meaning of the song since it's poetry and everyone has a diff understanding an translation to it...but it's nice..and i understand a little bit of it..the chorus part =P well...all i can say is..JAY CHOU..YOU RoCk!!!

this....this...is my dream fon... damn nice rite?? i like both la.. but i prefer the one on the left..

nokia 7370... SO NICE RITE?!!! sigh...not cheap ah...sumore my mom doesn't believe in spending on fons...so..i have to earn my way for it..sigh....but it's beautiful!! love it mann!!

i'm still like so into that song..it's os nice..the tune the melody and the lyrics...sweet...and meaningful...
that's if u know the meaning of the lyrics la... beautiful..simply beautiful..
and here i am...thinking..yeah..i think i really let go edi...that' good rite???
it's a good thing, a good sign and i should really get my head in SPM..
i'm kinda scared actually..i mean..wat if my results come out shittier than vincent's results..
that really is STUPID if i got suckier results than him...
sighg..mom scolding...gtg

sigh...tomorrow got art exam..and i'm not even ready yet.
well..i have a small draft of wat i'm gonna do but i'm not sure if it'll work out 2mrw..
eh..so how la??? sad sad sad....i'm so lost here and it's already 11pm!!
sigh..all that's in my head is this song..by Guang Liang and Liang Jing Ru.

Fish: Hao xiang zhe yang bao zhe ni
Wo zhi dao ni you xie zai yi
Gei ta shang le xin
Cai xiang dao ke yi zhao ni
Michael: Hao xiang zhe yang bao zhe ni
Wo zhi dao ni xian zai shang xin
Xiang you ren pei ni
Zhi shi ru ci er yi
(Bridge)
Fish: Ni zhi dao
Michael: Wo ming liao
Fish: Bao zhe ni wo de lei
::: Michael: Ni de lei
Fish and Michael: Que wei ta er diao
Fish: Ni zhi dao
Michael: Wo ming liao
Fish: Bao zhe ni
Fish and Michael: Wen xi yong bao
Fish: Ni zhi dao
Michael: Wo ming liao
Fish: Bao zhe ni
Fish and Michael: Wo de xin you xie dong yao
Fish: Ni you de hao
Michael: Ta you de hao
Fish: Ta zuo bu dao
::: Michael: Wo zuo bu dao

(Chorus)
Fish: Hai xiang ta
Michael: Ye xu ta
Fish: Ke neng deng wo hui jia
::: Michael: Deng ni hui jia
Fish: Zai wo men
::: Michael: Zai ni men
Fish and Michael: Xiang shi de lou xia
Fish: Hai xiang ta
Michael: Ye xu ta
Fish: Ke neng bo wo dian hua
::: Michael: Bo ni dian hua
Fish and Michael: Liu hua
Fish: Hai ai ta
Michael: Ni ai ta
Fish: Wo cong mei
Fish and Michael: Huai yi guo jin wan xin di de zheng zha
Wo bu shuo ni ming bai ma
Fish: Zhi neng zhe yang bao zhe ni
Wo zhi dao ni you xie zai yi
Gei ta shang le xin
Cai xiang dao ke yi zhao ni
Michael: Zhi neng zhe yang bao zhe ni
Wo zhi dao ni xian zai shang xin
Xiang you ren pei ni Zhi shi ru ci er yi

(Bridge)

(Chorus)
i am like so into this song!! it's such a beautiful song!!

normally, after mom picks me up from school..den we go pick up francine [ my sister] from chen moh lah...
so..like that la...den after we pick her up edi...den we were heading to that X junction you know..so almost reaching the traiffic light edi and my mom was driving qutie slow la..
suddenly this mentally+eye sight impaired lady started reversing her bloody car into the road and we were just few inches away and my mom brake and hon her la...den we felt like something hard in the boot moved...and the car also like goyang goyang a bit..
so i tot...ma..wtf u put in the boot?
so when we turn and look at the back.. OMG..WTF... stupid motorbike bang into us..
DAMMIT....negotiate la.. den so UNLUCKY...got police lalu..wat the hell..they ask to report..
sei la...so ma fan wanan report...sigh...
luckily my mom's car only like got scratches...if got dent means i'm gonna go and screw that indian fellow...sumore he fetching his sister..who is from?? SMK TAMAN PETALING..
deng hui ge fai...
but at least...all of us are safe and sound...
God blessed us..thank you!!

poor yvonne twisted her neck 3 days ago...
while she was...SLEEPING!!!! =(
and now..it STILL hurts =(
but it's healing la.....pheww...

ahahahaha... i went to RO carnival today.... so chunted!!!
i went with aw they all... wahahaha... so weird rite?? fetch them sumore.. swt
sigh..those bunch of living male organisms...
anyway, I MEAN LIKE IT WAS SO COOL!!! and there were lie..free stuff which we got and like cheaper items!!!!
spent over 200 bucks mann!!! woah!!! I'M SO HAPPY!!
i went there in my RO shirt sumore... feel like a true ragnarocker!!!
beli like so many chun stuff!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
but i STILL didn't get my RO basketball and that angeling aw bought.. i still dun hv them...
nxt time lah, when i got money =P
wait till SPM over, RO...here i come!!!
i love RO!!

RO FOR LYFE!!

tuition ended at 4pm~ okay lo.. usually my grandad will be there already...but he wasn't..
4.10pm= shit..where's my grandad...all these weird looking malay men are scary!!
everyone's gone already!!
4.30pm= call home....grandad's out for a LONGGGGGGGGG time edi...why isn't he here??
why?? HE FORGOT!!! francine [my sister] was like..ok ok..grandad coming now...
4.40pm= home to andrew choo only 5 MINS!! whr is my grandad!!!???
4.45pm= call home again....HE WAS AT NIRMALA'S!! char dou!!!
4.55pm= finally...omg..i wasted an HOUR waiting..instead of doing acccounts!!! arghhh...geram
betul la....ish ish ish...

seriously, i was lazing around during sejarah exam this morning, when i saw this note on the table...i prayed it was sejarah notes but darn it, it wasn't!!~
so i read it la..i mean, why not?? i didn't write it~
it said : [not original version, i can't really remember exactly]

hey there, wanna chatz with me?
sorry but i'm on the bed with _ _ _ _ _ you know?
when a penis meets with a pepet on bed together

and that was it... IT'S SO STUPID!! AND IT'S A HANGING SENTENCE~!!!
and for crying out loud, if u dunno the word, DON'T WRITE IT IN CANTONESE..
stupid girl~

today like normal, we were in old town after fetching my sister and we stopped at the traffic light u noe..
and den, irwin,eelivia and some shorty walked in front of us..didn't see me..luckily..
and i was like..hey, my coach!!
and my mom was like..who who who?? the rambutan head??
and i'm like...the gorilla like guy... and i burst out laughing when i realized she said RAMBUTAN HEAD ..... it was so funny!! and i'm like..yepz..that guy... and my mom was like..
yeeee~ no personality... i was laughing so hard...so funny!!!!!
such a joke mann!!

i baked brownies today!! first time ya'know!!
it turned out.....OKAY!! it's nice..i let every1 try it.... but compared to wat aunty christine did was way different..hers was moist!! mine isn't really that moist but it tastes okay!! my mom said it's nice~
so now i gotta tell aunty christine about it and ask her professional opinion..why isn't mine moist?????
MuaxXx!!~

MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA~

YVONNE AIN'T CHOSEN FOR NS!!

one more month and I CAN DRIVE!!! WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO
but on my bday, i got moral gerak gempur =(

mommy is coming back tomorrow... visited her today!! she can move adi.. she just took out the tube yday evening..she can eat adi!! yippee..when she's fully recovered..i'll bake brownies for her =P she got so many bouquets of flowers!! like.. four??? that's alot for me la..eh.. five ah..
and every morning, her student comes to visit her... so sweet rite?? i don't even have the chance to visit her every morning..well, i have school...
but mommy's ok!! so God..THANK YOU!! i love you!!

went to visit her yday again..she moved to the normal ward adi..no more ICU..intensive care unit...ahahx!! i remember!! anyway, it seems that her esofagus was bron with a baby tiny hole and it's hard for food to leak out but once in a while it does so there comes the tumor...
mommy almost died coz the STUPID selayang hospital simply cocok her tumor and gave her stupid dumb antibiotics and stuff and when they opened the tumor it had pus..
so mommy almost died!! phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww THANK THE LORD!! MUAXXX
she was ok la but cannot eat throught the esofagus because of the hole..so she's using the drip and she started on milk today..and she needs to do some respiratory exercise..but i know God will be by her side and protect her.... mhmm..
Amen.

i went to the hospital and see mommy...wow, the jam took us about like a 75 minutes drive to KL's gleneagles medical centre...somewhere in KL la.... den i was walking into the ICU or was it IUC ward..and it was so freaky..the bloody hospital looked like a freaking hotel/shopping mall..
anyway, so we went there and we went into see mom..omga!! it's like..mommy was just lyin' there not moving and awake...gawsh, her talk was like a mumble..and there were so many tubes on her..nose la, hand la and all the crap and the monitor screen was showing the pulse and all..
when i saw i wanted to cry but daddy was talking to mom and smiling and grandma was just looking alrite and my sis, fran was just fascinated with the hospital..
i wanted to cry but i held on to my tears...when i got into the car i cried..aisks..i cried and i fell asleep...ahahahx i mean like...looking at your mom...so weak and not being able to eat and drink water eventho she's so thirsty...and she'll be lying there for at least a week..it hurt me..
throughout the whole day, so many ppl were msg-ing me..asking me am i alrite...how's my mom..and sandy called..aunty kelly called...and God answered my prayers!! love ya, God!! pn. jasminder called!! ahahx..but at least mom's alrite..that's just fine..there's nothing more i want to ask for but mom to be safe and sound...
i saw the tumor...it looked like a grape..slightly larger than a grape but grapish kinda thingie...ahax looked really weird and kinda disgusting but at least it's outta mom's body..the doctor said luckily they took it out because it's been there really long and he was suprised mom didn't notice the side effects because the tumor was filled with pus or watever..EWWWWW having goose pimples...urgh!! let's not talk about it now..dad wants me to sleep..
night before last i slept 2 hours and last night i slept for an hour..
somehting is wrong with me..i'm sleeping less and less and less...and i don't even feel tired/sleepy..darn it..
this ain't me!! i'm suppose to sleep like a pig!! but sumi reckons it's the panic feeling that caused it...she had the same thing during the interact carnival..
okla..i know i'm sleepy and tired...i better get to bed..

i really thank and am grateful for all those who prayed for my mom and their concern for her..
and today she had her operation..in the morning..when i was in school..and i had to break down in front of pn. jasminder..because she was talking about yday's report card day and she was saying how the parents felt and i felt bad because i didn't do well and my mom was probably in the operating room already...i didn't want to cry in school!! everyone thought i was perfectly fine and they didn't know about this!!
but i grew more teary until i had to look down to stop teacher noticing that i was crying..i quickly wiped my tears and told myself to stop crying...den pn. jasminder was like..yvonne's already crying..her mom is in the hospital now..and she told the whole class about my mom's condition and she told the class to pray for mummy...i was so touched and worried for my mom and i cried harder and pn. jas just came over and told me to be strong for my mom because she's weak now..she said everything is gonna be alright...
i quickly stopped crying eventho i so wished some1 was there and i could just spilled the buckets of tears i've been keeping over the weeks...but i stopped crying and pn.jas started crying then she came back and said, why women are so weak ah?? after that, the whoe morning was a rush because we were finishing our bloody art work...and i bought the WRONG freaking spray!! stupid lady!! anyway, i came home..makan lunch and daddy called to say mommy was ok..she finish the op d..and she's ok...
hallelujah...praise the Lord!! thank you all so much for praying for my mom...i'm ever so grateful...i really am...thanks so much, frenz!!
thank the Lord!!

lit nite was da bomb mann...at first i didn't get to go for lit nite, so lauren, suyen n i went to watch the morning show..den like after the show...i CAN'T resist..i need the lit nite tickets!!
but sold out wo...but at 3PM...sandy got me a ticket!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
so i rush back home...at like 7pm...i reached school at 7.30pm!! ngam ngam..the show was GREAT!! and i sat with amy n sharifah sara...i was in pink...light pink..KIMMIE was so pretty!! in sari!!
anyway....the CARNIVAL...i went there...in pink again bcoz rahmah requested...and in jeans..and my beloved belt..and EVERYONE was staring at me...tashsa was SHOCKED...she was with her guy and she told him, our basketball president..looking like this...why are u so guy-ish in school ah? and i'm like...it's my inner self..
den i saw rahmah n hazwani and maisarah and haizum and wei hui and genevieve and varnam and hwei and alot alot of ppl...anyway, lauren teman me there..but she left after an hour..
so i sat with gen at the dunk in booth...and the orang asli guy was there....ahahx and alot of nirmala's students there la..and the lasalle bball guys....den after that, ashwinni went and sat at the dunk in, den we persuaded genevieve to sit..den she was like..YOU SAY U GONNA SIT THERE..and i'm like..ok ok i change...
so i change to all black and i sat there....GOSH, it took like 5 ppl to get me down..den i din sit jo...wait until dry and made many frens..girls n guys..den alex came with some frens to dunk his sis and the lasalle bballers came to dunk liang fang...after that, some group of dudes came and dunk this indian girl whom i forgot her name...den i dunk gen...the orang alsi stole one of the balls and my reflex whacked him... =P my bad...and i dunked genevieve!! den the group of guys came back to dunk me..TWICE!! den they came over to ask my name ...ahahx i said i dunno..
after that i couldn't change bcoz...innappopriate..so i stayed in the wet baju..and we ate ice-cream..and IT WAS RAINING.. damn syok weh...

i'm back home!! and guess wat?? the first day i went to penang, i went to the gurney mall..
and i met so kim hong or soo kim hong or wtv..
then the next day, i went to kek lok si and i met that ass again..gawsh..wtf mann!! Thank God i don't know him!!~ phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
it was fun..
but i had my period!!! = ( so i didn't swim..i just sat by the pool reading my da vinci code...
and fell asleep =P
then jalan jalan at the beach..beautifulland vincent spoilt my mood..and my dumb fon cacat adi..
i think it's nearing the end of it's life span...ahahx..
that's about it la...i always go to penang..so...

hihi~ this holidays i'm going to penang..again!! but i love it there...so nice!!~
on the way staying overnight in perak to visit my grandparents...heex...
omg...terfollowed rina say heex...aisks...... going away ...go swimming!! yay yay!!!
nothing much to blog about actually..wait till i come back first lo~
got one very nice song.....it's called

Gallery-mario Vazquez

damn nice..go listen to it k??!!

today horr...dunno why the whole family so hungry during tea time...we don't usually eat tea la..maybe got la but not so near dinner time ....almoast 7pm dy..
den i was like, mom, i'm hungry!! and she was like, so am i....ahahaha...
so i sat there watchign tv..holding my tummy...=P she came out eating something orange and long...and i was like ...papaya??? such a thin slice?? and she threw me the same orange thing slender stick to me....eat that..i'm like..wat izzit??
i took it..eewwwwwwwwwww, soft but not as soft as a papaya...i am like..wat izzit???
she was like..eat it la, u're hungry rite? so i took one bite and i'm like...WHY IS THE CARROT SO SOFT?!!! and she said, i boiled it...and i'm like WHY IS IT SO COLD?!! and she started laughing....i just ate la..it wasn't that bad tho... and i was like..wow..hungry eat carrots...boiled ones sumore and COLD sumore..and she was like..good for your face!! eat it..
fine fine fine...hillarious i tell u..cold boiled carrot sticks for snack..how healthy concious can my mom be??? but it's my benefit =P

yay yay!!~ today we went to ou!!! me, suyen, abby and lauren~ hehe..rite after nirmala's...
pheww..after so long of not stepping into a mall...finally..but it had to be ou...dunno how we suddenly jumped there...from mv to ou....but vincent said if i step into ou i should inform him..so i did..
i'm such a good girl rite? but anyway..he had to fulfil his promise...or i'll kill him and NEVER help him again!!
so..........we went there!! omg..we came back with SORE feet...we spent a lot on ice-cream and drinks and cakes at secret recipe....we went in to shops...clothes of course but abby just masuk try baju keluar...hahah...
i got oreo McFlurry~ so long didn't eat ok!! haihz...so NICE!! so GOOD!! miss it but it's not worth it...but it's not my money =P i noe i'm mean la!! just go McD say hi..take the ice cream say thank you and ciao~ =P lauren they all bang me d ok!!
then ho....wat did we do? clothes clothes ice cream clothes smoothie clothes handphone go home..hahahha..can't believe i did that...i mean..i don't shop for clothes...but well..anyway.....my feet hurt k!! pain pain pain tired tired tired but it was fun!~
vincent!! i want that thing!!! why u dun buy for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway....lauren was like ordering us EVERYWHR...let's go here..let's go there...hahahahah...
now i damn tired d la..actually i dozed off just now...=P mommy bought me a new pillow..so soft...
eheh..kla..i'm physically worned out so it kinda affects me mentally..a lil slow..and blur.....haihz...
ciaoz~

today we had basketball practise!!! so chun!!!~ actually it's like a normal game la...after exam..go loosen up a bit...with abby, suyen, me..and some juniors with nailin....but it was fun!!!
miss the game so much..muaxx!!~ yalah..the court a lil wet but since when did we care?
we miss it!!~ of course we miss nailin too!!~ mhmm...wasn't tired at all....haihz...nice nice nice..
i tot i wud nvr be able to play again after MSSD but .....wow.......it was fun....but so many of the senior team didn't come weh....wat lah u ppl!! kononnya so semangat to play together again..when we ask u to come..dun wan..got other things on~ fine la....ish ish ish...
thinking about the future..in a few months or one month..we BOD's have to step down d........
WHICH IS A GOOD THING K!! but thinking that we're actualyl leaving school d u noe!!! seems like just yesterday we form the club huh, abby?? now it's already 2 years old and we're leaving in the hands of the juniors which we are so not sure they can make the club survive after all our hard efforts in establishing it...
but it's good to always have faith tho....it's all up to u cheryl!!~ jaga ur senior properly ah!! if only u could be president mann!!~remember u guys owe it to us..u guys gotta balas dendam fer us in MSSD.....but u won't be against my sister adi that time...she will be in the CHS junior team...
i'll make sure of that..but that time..if i come to support, i support my sis or u guys le????? hmm....tough choice wo~
hahahaha...dunno la....but i think i'll be on assunta's side~ u guys ahve my word....but hey!! i still wanna come practise with y'all after i leave ok!! =P hehehe......thinking that i'll be leaving sch..leaving the memories that made up 3/4 of my life till now...my frens in school...our gang...everything...it makes me miss school already eventho i'm not really a 'I LOVE SCHOOL' girl but....haihz.....it seems it's time to wake up that i've already lived 17 years of my life and it's time to leave school and take on this harsh and cruel world~ sad.........

OMG!! CLAY AIKEN!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6zW_usktz-o

LOOK LOOK LOOK!!!
he's so CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God made Men first, then...he had a better idea!~!

AMELYN!!! YOUR GOOD FRIEND!!!
hahahahahah!!!!

we had our bball MSSD yday and today... we lost all 4 matches...all four...yes...but it was all way super better than last year...way better~ BECAUSE WE HAVE A BETTER TEAM THIS YEAR!!
WOOHOO~!! watever.... it's over and it's lost...we suck...........ok... irwin's speechless...we owe nai lin chocs...haihz...but we enjoyed it~ HELL YEAH!! we improved ok!! yes we did...
many of us had injuries though..the dumbest injury by me...which is on my head..shitties...
we lost without losing our spirit..we din lose with BIG gaps...we lost with small, quite small differences... importantly, we din lose without trying..we did our best..
winning and losing isn't everything..it's the experience u gain in a match [ vincent's quote ]
that was my speech~ sorry ya..curi ur kata-kata~
we all did our best..we all had our injuries..we all had our portion of the blazing sun... we played wat we learnt and we tried our best... it's alrite... we had our experiences..we will try n do better..
in the future with other ppl...
just remember, we are a team..and always one team!!
GO ASSUNTA!!
semangatnyerr aku..must be that fall on my head~ dammit..

sports day just ended yday~ ME, I, YVONNE wasmarching..HOLDING THE FRANCIS FLAG!!! wat an honour!! seriously, i felt so...proud!! holding the Francis flag worr!! damn chunted ok!!!!
those who didn't come missed it..this was the first time we [ our gang ] so semangated during Sports Day..sookie was the sepanduk holder with angeline..sandy was deco captain..lauren n dadah on QM duty..i was QMcaptain holding the flag...ahahaha....so pai seh..all house captain then suddenly francis ketua QM... the unbelievable thing was..abby came..whcih i tot she wasn't coming!! i was so happy and suprised to see her..den i spotted wei hui..so sey!! in the hermine cheerleading skirt..and genevieve there shouting as per usual!!~
it was so chunted la...we marched and the field at the side near the hall, as usual..WET N MUDDY!! eww eww eww....but we jalan aje thru all that shit..and all of us flag bearers tangan kanan kejang..BECAUSE pn.hong gave this damn long speech..our arms were aching like nobody's business...!!!
i was like..ZATIL!! HELP ME!!! and there was didi..turning and summer saulting...ish ish ish..
i see oso pening kepala adi!!~ but she won best mascot so, it was worth it!!! the ending was the bomb!!! we all gather in the center of the field..so little students in the field...all in outside clothes la..stupid ppl!!
anyway, it was prize giving la...francis cheerleading didn't win la...sadz.........................
but this is the most important thing...WE WON MARCHING!!!!!!!!!! saleha's gonna be so proud!! bet she is!!!!!
i screamed so much and so many of 'em cried!! it really meant a lot to us ...we kena disqualified for the previous 2 years i think...... but we won anyway..mascot and marching...it was a close battle...we were like..shit..who's gonna win this year!!!
and when it was time for the result...JUARA KESUKANAN 2006 SMKA IALAH....so and so..
we were like WTF?!! it was hermine and francis..TWO WINNERS SHARING SAME SCORE...
but we won anyway...we won and we cheered like nobody's business...ahahaha...that's why..
now...yvonne's having sore throat..her voice broke...~
but hey, it was worth it..my mom was like..you look like a roasted chicken..NO I DON'T..
i'm just a tiny wee bit darker....eheh...but hey, i can't stay white forever in my whole life...
a lil sun n sea won't hurt, rite abby??? ahahah...anyway, we won..and that's wat matters...
and cheers to Francis...altho it's shared victory it's still VICTORY!!!!
FRANCIS GENG, FRANCIS YENG, FRANCIS MOU TAK DENG!!
GO GO G-O-G-O GO GREENS GO!! our last year in school and we won...BE PROUD FELLOW FRANCISCIANS....ahahaha...

signing off~ yvonne...

we lost the match between SMK SS17 and us..i dunno wat else to say anymore..
we played wat we learnt...we did wat we could..our score wasnt' bad at all..compared to our last score..but wat am i feeling now actually???
i thought we could win mann..gosh..i tot if we won we cud have gathered some courage to go for MSSD but we lost.....
i'm a lousy player...why the H*LL am i on the team!!! i'm not worthy to be in the club at all..
but it's just a game..the main purpose was experience...you guys played well...we did well..
our best game so far... the difference was not too far...
coach said it wasn't that bad..it's just a game...
SO PPL, STOP ASKING ME DID WE WIN AND ANSWER THE QUESTION FOR ME SAYING, AIYAH, YOU SURE WIN RITE!! STOP IT....it's just a game..win or lose is nothing..
the thing that matters is that u did your best and you played fair..remember that..
i think i should remember that..eheheh

Last night horr, when dinner time rite....i went downstairs as per usual for dinner...
so i ran down the stairs horr...and i headed to the kitchen and then i took my plate..
i dunno wat was in my mind at that time..i took my plate and took my fork and spoon and i just went to the dining table and sat there without looking at my plate...as i lifted my FORK to TAKE vege..my mom was like....' so, wat r u gonna eat with an empty plate?'
AND i was like..*look down at my plate* ahahahahah...GOT NO RICE!!
AND so, i went and scoop rice into my plate leaving my fork and spoon on the table..and then i began to EAT!!!! and i ate and ate...till i left half a plate of rice and i realize something...
'WHERE'S MY SPOON?????' i've been eating with a fork all this while!!!! and my dad was like..THERE!! your spoon in that plate of tofu..i was like ....WHO PUT IT THERE>???!!!!
and my grandad was like, why u leave it on the table??!!! and i was like .... just i forgot to scoop rice ma!! i went and scoop lo!!! ish....
so i had to go n take spoon again~
haihz...I'M SO BLUR RITE?!! my whole family laughing at the table..ishhhhhhhhhhhhh

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~
basketball MSSD is like wat? 2-3 weeks away???? yealah, we still suck as ever la..
BUT hey, it's still like..GAWSH.....IT'S LIKE THE LAST YEAR THE SCHOOL'S GONNA HAVE ME IN IT!! not like i'm some super important people but the only thing i miss the most in school and worry the most after school...will be basketball club...
eheh...dunno why le..maybe because me, lauren and abby susah payah form the club..
now leaving it alone after 2 years..dunno ...will it survive??? scary..
but make the most outta life..play hard study hard!!!
play hard to stop opponent from scoring, play hard to score more!! eheh!!!
that's all la..nothing much i can say anyway..got one BIG thing gonna happen soon..
will write an entry aout it after it has happened~ eheh

FRANCIS WON CROSS COUNTRY..1ST PLACE!!
i got number 41 kelas P1, form 5!!! i'm so happy!!
wat's wrong with me? i thought i hated school and francis geh!! why this year become like that?
maybe because i'm FORM5 d..gonna leave school...
GO GO G-O-G-O GO GREENS GO!!

the first time i lost my IC, i found it back..
the 2nd time, i lost it in Korea...
the third time is now, and that's my 2nd IC...and my parents are pissed...aka my mom..
and today i called her and asked her politely, mom can u come and fetch me back from school??
and u noe wat i got back...she said, .WHY???!!!
i'm like, because i wanna come home...and then, a 30 secs silence...
and she was like, i can't fetch u now..AND SHE DIN WANNA TELL ME WHY!!!
i was like, nevermind.i follow abby home and she said, okay..go follow ur friend home...

it's really nothing but..the part where i had to answer..i wanna come home..sux...
i SWEAR that i'll leave home as soon as i'm of age which is 21...she already wanna kick me outta the house now...and told me to leave when i'm of age...i'll do that...
i never wanna say that line again in my whole life...

i actually wrote year 2007 in the previous post....how stupid of me..
sorry sorry.. it's year 2006...

valentine's day worr....thsi year is year 2007..the first time i celebrate valentine's day....yeapz..
i know i'm single ok!!! i celebrate with sookie, abby, dadah and amily ><"
wat to do, we all single ma..x-cept sookie.... and it's our last year in school....Form 5 marr ><
we went to amcorp and eat lunch and laugh ><
and then we fly taxi back to school for sports practise and another happy incident happened..
i scored 10 points for Francis this year~!! because it's my last year, so i might as well do it properly....... hehehe.. i'm mean ><"
but i scrapped my lef LEG u noe...very pain ah.... *sob sob*
but so sad lorr..vincent twisted his ankle on val's day.. hahaha... opppsss...sowwie....
exam is in a weeks time.. after that got MSSD for basketball...i'm scared ><"
but hey, as long as i've done my best rite?? mm...i'll do it!!

happy valentine's day everyone!!~

my foot healed pretty well for 2 weeks..this is the 3rd week jorr...i can walk normally adi..no more tempang tempang..no more crutches..hooray!!!!!!!!!!!! greatest joy...i thought i couldn't run but irwin said run slowly during practise [he's mean] and i tried and i could...yay!!
den, today got sports practise, i tried to run..i can..but tempangly..coz i scared i sprain it again but I CAN RUN JORR...yay yay yay!!! but i'll let my foot rest and heal more first before i start practising back...but now, every morning must run at the field..ALL BASKETBALLERZ...
train for MSSD and also merentas desa~ more to basketball actually...hehehe...better ma...
hehe...y'all...basketballerz..LISTEN OR NOT?~
den got the stupid QM thing to do..haihz...wait.but i canl pulverize..not a good word...i can TORTURE the poor juniors..muahahahahahhahaha..FORM 3 SUMORE..WATCH OUT!!
i noe i'm evil..muahahahhaa...~okla..my foot oso quite ok jorr and my life..hehe..siu jorr online lo~ valentines day that time got sukantara...damn chun la the days..haijoh..okla..
byebye~

my poor foot....still not yet recover or even show signs of recovery...worst still, because of the crutches..my hands feel like after kokyi's training...so painful..crutches hurt ok!!!
haihz...when is it ever gonna heal? when can i play basketball??? when can i do things i wanna do with my foot.. i'll never go down the stairs in the dark again...nopez..never ever..i'll switch the lights on next time..but the jumping part..ehhehe..jump on right foot lorr...
i noe yvonne masih tak serik serik la..chill chill...hopefully, my foot will heal in a months time BEFORE basketball MSSD....i'll never and will try to take care of my foot i nfuture and will not sprain it if it jsut recovers nicely before MSSD... I SWEAR!!!
when is it every gonna heal? i have to go through CNY like this? gawsh..my uncles are gonna ejek me like shit..will i be able to handle it? they're pretty mean you know....
gawd..how long is adwin gonna sleep?? yawn..i'm losing energy...i guess sleep is next for me..
happy chinese new year ppl~

sob sob sob sob sob!! i twisted my left foot for the FIRST in my life....and it swell to the size of an egg!! everyone in basketball was like wahahahahahah...the funny/stupid thing was...because i twisted it...at home... *blush* yealah!! i very lun zhun...earluy morning the stairs damn dark mah!! so i miss one step lo!! after bball, go see tit da...WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..he apply the medicine and rub twice...after like 1 minute..i was screaming in pain adi..but that was like for 5 minutes only lah..no hoping on ONE foot so tiring...and how to go to school?!! hah?!! how to go to sports practise?!!! how to play BASKETBALL!!! sob sob sob....nooooooooooo.....

later go see dentist..got 1 flight of stairs..monday go nirmala's tuition..2 FLIGHTS of stairs!!...........

haiz...so sad!!! and painful with the stupid bandage.. i can't even wear my shoe!! ><><>

woahh..scool reopen and it's the 2nd week and i'm so darn busy with shit crap....
i'm serious ok...there's like sports practise, basketball practise, tuition everyday, kokurikulum
stuff do fill in and to attend...all this shit and then got the stupid extra art lesson ....
haiz...life is not long enough to be enjoyed..we should have more youth den adulthood....rite??
definately, but i'm sure i'll miss school once i go to college and i'm sure when i start working..
i'de wanna do homework..hahahaha..this is how life is rite???? it's like there's so much to do
but SO LITTLE time....i never play RO for 2 weeks already..which IS a record ok!!! i used to
play everyday!!! so how come i'm like this now? why do i even care about finishing my hw now?!
who cares about homework..i wanna have fun!! but stupid SPM is coming nearer and nearer...
the day i die...yepz..i dun wanna leave school at all>!!!!! no no no no no...love love love school!!
eww..did that just came outta my mouth?!!! but i noe one thing..there're friends out there to
lean on..we can lean on each other during this super hard time which is part of our future crap..
haiz...life sux!!i'm sure u all agree!!! but now, i've got Heaven-NU Flavour in my head for 2 days
already and the whole class is getting annoyed by that song...and charmaine left yday to NZ!!
i already miss her!!! ><><
RO4LYFE

wow..it's like..my last year in high school then it's bye bye assunta!!! form5 coming rite at me..
SPM..dammit..do i have to go through this??? so scared..i feel so small all of a sudden....tiny..
2oo6..a totally new year...and i bet this year will be fully schedule with tuition and studies~
haih..sumore i'm not the studying type..how am i gonna survive this year??
all the studying..chemistry, biology , accounts..ADD MATHS!! MY BIGGEST ENEMY!!~ sei lorr..
how did the other previous seniors survive hah??? how can get straight A's le?? haihz..
i'm scared i kena curfew....i hope time would stop RIGHT HERE~
i dun wanna grow up...i dun wanna go for SPM...i dun wanna finish SPM den go college..
i dun wanna go college den go to work..den my life is on my own...i'm responsible for my life adi..
sei...den i have to think about my expenses and crap...den i'm sure my mom wants me to go get married..i'm doomed...i dun wanna grow up..i am dreading growing up when so many lil kids just can't wait to grow...nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

i think it must be the holiday homework getting in to me..i'm going totally cuckoo...