if i must see you in my dreams, please don't wake me...

it seems that our short meetings and dinners have caused this in me...

i need help..

i need someone who understands what i’m going through…

i’ve never been more lost in my life than i am now…

it seems that every major decision in my life is waiting for my answer now…

i’m so lost…

everyone is born in a cage….

but not everyone realizes that their whole life’s been encaged..

and when some break free, some of us can only shed our tears and drown in our pool of sadness,

some are comfortable in their cages and some don’t even realize it..

and for those of us in our cages, drowning in our pool of sorrow..which from what i know, many of my buddies… (not cursing you guys)

it’s okay..we’re all in the same boat~

that’s why God let us find each other…

He gave us hands to pull each other out of our pool of sorrow,

He gave us speech so that our words may comfort each other,

He gave us ears so that we may listen to each other’s tales,

He gave us eyes to see through our masks and know of our sorrows,

……this post sounds too emo…… let’s add a bit of “me” in it~

He gave us noses so that we may smell the food we have during our emo yumcha time~

We have each other, so don’t shy away in times of trouble..

Though we have differences, we’re here for each other…

~~ o ~~

On another hand, it’s great to have you back JieYing~ teehee~ ^^

what you said out of adrenaline..or whatever hormone rushing through your brain just to argue with what i have to say almost brought me to tears…

i know what i want is merely to give myself an ounce of hope… but you caged it almost instantly… and it felt hurtful..

but it’s okay…..a short talk with my besties gave me a picture of what you may be thinking on your side.. it’s okay for now…

for those of you who watch WongFu Productions..i’d like to quote their song :

It’s the end of the week, a wongfu week..it’s wongfu weekends~!!!

though it’s not MY wongfu weekend..but..it’s the weekend..and the last day of my holiday.. surprisingly, it has been quite an eventful holiday…how ironic…the last holiday i have..(hopefully) for this degree course and i finally filled the 2 week with activities!! woohoo~

so how were my holidays??? i actually can’t really remember… hahaha… well i started of with an “otaku” holiday..stayed at home..played PC games..and the ps3~ and then…i stayed over at andrew’s place…had movie marathon…which i so dearly miss… and i went to work on Sunday and Monday at Machines.. little did i know that those were my last days because…….. (..to be continued..)

then tuesday i went to the office for this small interview thingie for my internship.. then all became a blur… i forgot what i was doing~ then saturday, my family and i went for a short one night trip to Gohtong Jaya at Genting…with my internship boss’s family and another family.. my dad, the boss and the other guy were high school mates… and they were like kids…. goodness..

came back on Sunday evening…which i was supposed to be working at Machines…my last day..but my mom ……imposed her law..and said i have to go for this trip…then had an awesome lunch at CCC with hueyuen, penny, david chio, eunice, ganesh, audrey and aw~ Purpose of lunch? thank them for helping me in my grad..which i passed so they don’t have to help me again~

anyhoo, went back to Ipoh on Monday night…then we went for supper..!!! had ice-kacang…and Hor Hee~ very very nice~ good food with cheap price~ then tuesday, we went to my aunt’s house for Raya~ AWESOME FOOOOODDD…!! had lemang with corn in it.. and the serunding was heavenly!!~

then we went for a short game of badminton…and then went back to my aunt’s house again to eat dinner… bwahhahhahaha…!!! the following day, we went to Sunway Lost World Tambun…not a bad place…looks almost exactly to the our sunway.. the rides there..probably hit 20% in a 100% excitement bar..very boring… the petting zoo (according to my mom) was lovely…the animals in the petting zoo are probably thinking …

STOP TOUCHING ME..STOP TOUCHING ME…STOP TOUCHING ME… THIS IS A TORTURE SECTION!!!!

i mean, hey, you’ll never know what they’re thinking….

i also got this terrible tan from this trip…

my arms, face and back of the neck..all bright red and PAINFUL… my nose just started peeling…it’ll probably take some time for everything to start peeling… only i got such a terrible tan.. because it’s been a good year since i’ve seen Mr.Sun!!! my grandma said i look so much better now..i don’t look sick anymore..  

well, that tan is equivalent to the amount of sun i’m gonna get this year.. no more sun..till nxt year August~

i came back on thursday…and i went out with andrew on Friday…we had food…quite a lot of food… xD

now that i realize…this whole holiday has been lots of food… I WANNA LOSE THE PHATS…!!!! how?!!!

sigh..andrew is in Fraser’s Hill now…. i miss him so much…who knows if our times match when i start internship..tomorrow..and we will be able to meet each other? not to mention, i think i’m having andrew withdrawal symptoms.. been sickish since he left… could be a psychological matter though.. or i’m really falling sick due to massive amounts… i miss you…so much…

I’m about to lose my mind,

You’ve been gone for so long,

I’m running out of time.

I need a doctor,

Call me a doctor,

I need a doctor, doctor,

To bring me back to life.

tomoko out~