if i must see you in my dreams, please don't wake me...

yeap...as i always go around saying..yeah we never fight before..and it happened yesterday..in Midvalley somemore... and the cause of the fight??

we were in Midvalley..we bought tickets to watch The Lightning Theif..then we decided to jalan jalan lorr..had about an hour to walk around ma...then we reached F.O.S. he wanted to get something and then i spotted something that i've been looking for..then as i was paying, there were lotsa hats hanging next to the Cashier.. and he grabbed one and said i want to see you wear this.

I have a strictly NO HATS,CAPS OR FEDORAS OR ANYTHING ON MY HEAD rule...
and i've mentioned it to him before. Anything funny looking, you can't even persuade me to do it.. and we stood there for 5 mins twisting and turning..because i mati mati also don't wanna wear it and he mati mati also want me to wear it..i managed to free myself and i sat at a bench..about a meter away..?? and he sms me that he won't leave till i wear it.. so i walked outta the shop and went into Yamaha.. which was just next door la..i walked the whole shop..looking from keyboards to acoustic guitars to drumset to drum sticks and cymbals...and when i went back into F.O.S. he was sitting on the bench..and i said let's go..we've been at this for 15mins..i even called Karen and she was like..IT'S JUST A HAT..JUST WEAR IT.. no way!!! i'm not wearing it.. then i walk back in and the hat was missing.. (yay..was all i could think of..we can finally leave..we had only half an hour left to the movie at that point) and he was STILL THERE..PULLING ME TOWARDS THE HAT RACK..and we struggled for another while..and then i said i'm this much to losing it.. and he said the same thing..and he won't let go..

so....

no i didn't scream..but i stormed outta the shop and didn't stop walking..in my head i was thinking if he didn't follow, i'd just go to my car and go home..if i had the guts..or most likely stone in the car..

but he followed..and i walked for a couple of rounds while every few mins or so, his failed attempts to catch hold of me took place..and i was trying to avoid looking at his face..because i would laugh when i see him..but i was ANGRY..!!!! when i finally stopped walking..sorta..dunno where to go..he caught up with me..that time i was at the lift to our parking..i said i wanna go home..and i was kinda tearing edi...i mean..why force me into a stupid hat?! it's JUST A HAT.. i understand there are 2 points of view here..
no1: IT'S JUST A HAT..wear it..!
no2: IT'S JUST A HAT..forget about it and let me go!!

but from my point of view, i've already said i don't like hats..and he promised me to not force me to do anything i don't want to.. i mean if it was a good thing, somehow i would give in.. and if it was a bad thing, i would have stopped doing it if he asked..after a few times i guess.. (like stopping candy) but this is just a mere hat..

so he was kinda pinning me to the wall while people are coming in and outta the lift..and so i freed myself and started walking again..and i said i wanna go home..and he said..okay..then he open the bag that we had..and asked me to take my things.. i was kinda shocked..because of course i'd fetch him home..!! how can i leave him there alone??!!! (later on, he told me he was gonna tear the movie tickets edi since we're not watching) but i didn't go home..of course..and somehow i started talking lo..then we kinda talked about it..and i mean..we both know that we're both stubborn.. and he said if the issue wasn't just a hat, he wouldn't have gave in..so i said..if the issue wasn't just a hat, i wouldn't have retaliated.. in the end, we kinda worked it out... and the funny thing is that... during the fight, we both had the fear that either one of us wanted to break up... yeah..even though i was mad and all, i was scared..

so now, we had our first fight~ and the movie was AWESOME~ very nice as we both like greek mythology.. i also like Norse mythology..it's nice...

and now that i know how a fight feels like..i don't ever ever want it to happen again..
the constant fear that i might lose him..is scary...

aaaaaaanyway, that's behind me edi...thinking of it scares me a little..even now...

I'm leaving for Perak tonight..for Chinese New Year and i don't think i'll have internet access back there...so see you guys on Wednesday..hopefully..