if i must see you in my dreams, please don't wake me...

the next step seems so scary... but in truth, no matter who you are, everyone has to go through it..

i've had so much to say and yet i kept it all boiled up inside... you were never wrong, but if you don't let me fall, i will never learn...there's so much to say and yet so little..courage...

i wonder if one day, i'll just do it...or i will explain it all then do it...

as the days pass by, the maze doesn't seem so tough to get out.. i just had to keep my right hand on the right wall to eventually find my way out (true fact) . . . but when the light shines upon my face when i reach the gates of freewill, will i lock the doors and encase myself

or will i shatter the lock?

i believe now..and strongly believe that.... i want to live my life to please myself, for my own sake and my own happiness....and not live my life for your sake and your happiness....

and no matter how many times this runs through my head....