it's been quite awhile since i blogged.. but hey, i'm having midterms and the concert is coming up..
i don't even have time..for drew soon... next week..rehearsal till 11pm..
anyway, i've been thinking back a lot... about how life went by.. MY life..
next wed is drew's bday and i'm thinking.. after his bday, a month later..it'll be mine.. i'm gonna be 18.. i actually lived 18 years of my life..
and looking at the month, it's June.. the last day of June.. i've been with andrew for 6 months..
just yday it feels like i pecked him on the cheek in the train station where i was totally.. blanked out.. time just passed like that.. it didn't feel like 6 months.. it felt like a few weeks with him.. maybe because having him around.. well.. like they say, time passes by quickly when u're having fun..
and to think after all the shit i got from vincent.. well of course i was stupid, dumb and.. blurr and NAIVE that time but... to think that... i got what i wanted.. i got andrew.. i don't wanna think much but in life u don't get what you want but.. i got it.. so is it a dream? is God gonna take him away? i prayed for love..yeah i did..when i was younger..little girl.. and i waited for God to answer my prayers.. he gave me an opportunity to love..but it wasn't.. i mistaken God's sign..
and now i've got the opportunity and even though i think i'm tougher after what vincent got me through.. i still don't know if it's for real.. i keep thinking how long is this gonna last.. yeah, deep down i want it to last as long as it can.. but sometimes, the other part of me tells me 'GAWSH, U'RE STILL NAIVE' and sometimes, i tell myself.. i can be a little naive sometimes...
i really don't know.. and honestly, for once, i've never even had the thought or imagination that we would be seperated.. because everything is just so wonderful... yeah, i've live without him.. but that was before i knew him.. and nobody said i'm gonna die without him either but... things would be so different.. much worse because i know if it was gone.. God is playing a very very bad prank on me.. but now here am i thinking.. why do i love him so much... yeah.. i think it's love.. we don't know what it is..but hey, u think u're in love when u're in love.. hahahah..
somehow, i think andrew emits this kinda... aura that makes me feel so damn comfortable around him..i know that was dramatic.. i mean, i know myself.. i can't hang out with guys.. i do stupid stuff.. i talk stupid stuff and make myself look stupid-er than the stupid me.. but with him.. i just.. can't explain.. it's simply.. mutual.. it's the only word i can use.. he asked me today, when did u started liking me.. and i somehow couldn't answer.. i've tried answering that many times to him.. and they always ended up with 'i dunno.. u're just special.. u're different.. i can feel it..' but it is the truth.. i can't explain it.. i just.. feel it.. and i'm very happy and proud that he's the only guy i kissed and hugged.. ^^ something simple that i treasure.. he's just so cuuuuttttttteeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =P
well, i've no idea why i blogged about this..maybe because i FELT like it.. hahaha..
and since CHARMAINE asked me to put an ENTRY in my blog..
there you go char!!
well, obviously, my opposite house neighbors are having a funeral..
well yeah, it isn't THAT grand where police ppl go carry her coffin.. they just had it outside the house.. took up the road.. just like all Malaysians do... ^^
well...tonight, they're obviously weren't sad.. why?? because while i'm trying to study here.. I CAN HEAR CHIT CHATTERING AND LAUGHTER FROM THEIR HOUSE...
yeap.. somehow, they don't seem sad.. don't expect them to cry like..
but at least attend a funeral WITHOUT LAUGHTER... sumore laugh so loud.. ish ish ish.. sigh.. i'm getting a lil tired..i should go read some moral before i go to bed... or else i might just fall on the floor and zzzzzzzzzzz~
good nitez~
no this isn't that weird poem...
there's this grandma at the opposite house.. i know her since young..and she's a very nice old lady..
i used to go over and play .. i think.. from what i remember.. i've been to her house larr and play larr..
was very very young.. then she got sick and became very weak..couldn't walk and talk much..
so i also very seldom talk to her edi..seldom see her..
i came home today and i saw roof extensions at her house.. i ask my grandma.. who getting married..and my grandma said..what get married?!!! the old lady passed away.. i was like..harr?!! how???
my grandpa was like.. she fell into the longkang and died.. i was like.. eh? O_O
den i'm like..she can't walk..how to fall in the drain?
den my grandpa said..the old man was pushing the old lady in her wheel chair for morning walk.. den jatuh dalam longkang..bang head.. i'm like... how to jatuh in longkang? and my grandpa said.. u noe larr..old man marr..maybe dunno how to steer properly. .serious, the way he was explaining.. even he himself was laughing... if it wasn't death, i would have been very funny..
anyway, my mom came home and said the old man told her..apparently, he was trying to avoid a cat and suddenly masuk longkang..bcoz he bring his stupid dog along.. must be the stupid dog go chase the cat larr.. so the old lady fell and knock her head.. my mom saw because she just left for work... whole body got blood..from the head.. the kind indian neighbour came out and pulled her out and tried to slow down the bleeding.. the son n daughter in law still sleeping ..the maid was yelling from the longkang all the way to the house for them to wake up and they still slept like BABI.. she ran up and practically knock the door down den oni wake up..fetch the old lady to hospital.. she's weak.. that fall would have done any healthy person damage.. she passed away.. sigh... sad nyerr... seriously, when the other maid heard the shouting maid shouting.. she tot the dog fighting with another dog.. she grabbed a broom to the place of incident... funny.. but anyway, my condolences to the old lady.. she was a very nice lady and always smiling ^^
I LEFT MY PHONE IN DREW'S HSE!!!
MY PHONE!!! feel so spastic without it..
i dreamt of him last night.. hahahha...suyen said.. u really miss him THAT much arr?
i'm wondering that as well.. i rarely dream, u see..
well today is the 2nd day i've been through with his presence in HK!! H for HONG and K for KONG.. HONG KONG...
this saturday got test.. math test.. hahah... i not yet study....!!
one day down...
well, a part of me is missing him like the usual days..
but another part of me is telling me.. he's not here..
and.. i've been pretty normal.. hahah.. but once i got home from college..
i feel a lil... empty.. where's drew? in HK!!! alahai...
i certainly hope he's having fun and enjoying..
just now when i was watching tv, i got a lil envious over those scenes where those happy couples got together and stuff..
jealous larr tu...but this is like some kinda training larr.. hahah...
i'll just miss him more n more n more...i'm happy i got through today..
if it wasn't for college..whooosh..i'd be missing him like... psychotically.. i'm exaggerating now pulak..
conclusion larr : ONE DAY DOWN!! 4 more to go~
lol..4 more days to go..now it doesn't seem so long.. ^^
hours...just hours..about 2-3...hours..before..andrew leaves to the airport...
..sigh... till sunday...
yeap.. today after Moral Studies.. i went to karen's place for awhile den went to MV to meet up with drew..
just the two of us.. go watch Shrek 3.. seriously, eventhough it was a short one and a half hour show.. it was SO GODLIKE funny..before we went to the movie.. we went to the arcade for awhile.. coz not time yet.. i bumped into Adam there.. so i whacked him and i said eh.. he was like.. hey!! so i said.. yday i was at OUG i swaw u passing by.. after that he said ohyea..
so den i look at drew and said, 'my childhood friend' and i look at adam and said, ' my boyfriend' and he was like... *pause* owhh... hi! so i talked a bit..ask him about college a bit den ciao edi..den we walk one round and ended up near the entrance watch this guy play shooting.. adam was playing that dancing thing.. hahahah.. anyway, after awhile, drew tak tahan d.. wanan play so i said go ahead..
halfway playing, adam came to me and said, ' how u met him?' so i said... he's from Chatolic High larr.. and he said.. owhhhh.. why not La Salle? so i'm like.. 'harr?!! why must La Salle.. La Salle all.... *pause*' den he's like hhahaha... den he said he gotta go back to his friend so i said ok..bye.. den i continue watching drew shoot..
suddenly the feller came back and said, ' i shoulda grabbed u when u weren't taken.. wasted' and he left me there... with that O_O <<< look..i seriously terkaku there.. i'm like wtf..
i didn't bother to talk anymore larr.. coz drew finish the game and i told him d.. and andrew was like... tell him he lost long time ago d larr... i'm like..hahahahahah!! and i told drew.. i don't think he even participated..how to lose?
i'm not being mean..but all these while i memang treat him like a friend only.. ^^ i dunno wat to say. .it was damn funny or damn awkward... i never showed any signs of liking him more than a friend since young till now k.. it's not my fault k...
anyway, wednesday morning andrew n family going to Hong Kong till Sunday... i'm not gonna be able to talk 2 him for like.... 5days!!?!!?!!! buttttt... i'll survive hahhahah... i mean.. it's like some kinda test marr..like in tv shows right? ahhaha..i'm crapping...
oh yeah..friday night, saturday night and sunday night karen stayed over at my hse.. every night about 3am only sleep.. both of us gaming..o2jam..hahahha...
den saturday aw came.. we all watch movie n stuff.. sunday we all went out n eat together at OUG..so i got andrew to come along also =P
honestly ppl.. go watch SHREK 3 because it's really really really GODLIKE funny~
first time in Yvonne's history.. Dota.. using Rylai Crestfall.. Crystal Maiden..
what happened?
yvonne had double kill and... GODLIKE!! weeeeeeeee~
so happy..hahahahhhahah...i guess i was lucky.. =P
so excited..ahhahahahha..
i'm not going for cousin's wedding dinner tomorrow..bcoz karen coming over to stay over the weekends... hahahha.. some1 to teman me when i'm all alone at home..doing chores..ahahhaha
ohyeah, i met up with drew today.. =P
suddenly he said i'm going MV and i was about to finish class..and gonna have 3 hour break..
i was like.. karen lui, karen tan and jieying, let's go MV.. and they said OK!!
ahhahahah.... =P
poor thing.. andrew sick.. a lil sick.. got flu.. kesian~
