if i must see you in my dreams, please don't wake me...

yeah..had an epiphany...about..? one of the reasons why i always wanted to move outta the house a.s.a.p.
because my colleague once told me..the more you tell yourself..i don't wanna become like that..or similar..you will be...instead, say things like..i wanna be like this..or that..
then it'll happen..
so my mom was having one of her episodes again..yeah..i'm personally starting to think that she actually is crazy..
i've always told myself..i don't wanna be like her when i grow up..i don't want my kids to go through what i've been through..i don't want them cursing me, hating me behind me..

and it's too late for me because..i'm already somewhat like her..*thank god i realize* and i'm trying my very best to not be like her..but i don't know who i wanna be like...maybe like Katrina's mom ( my friend) but somewhat..better...her mom's too lenient... but definately not like my mom.... and why i've always wanna move out..which just hit me today..the longer i stay with her, the more of her crazy shit ass character rubs into me...and i've always wondered..why do i have stress? and it's not self diagnized..the doctor did...and i'm starting to think..it's because of her..!! so yeah..if i can just..be patient for a year or two..i'll survive..i've been patient for 20years..2-3 more years should..be..fine... i must have the courage..and not run away from it.. MUST..BE..PATIENT..!!

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yeap..yvonne was forced to go to MPO concert last night..rather...Organ Recital..it wasn't AS BORING as expected...but the fact that you had to dress formally screw all the fun out... so after the organ recital..there were 10 of us...wanting starving and in hunger for dinner....we went to...Sakae Sushi..!! like razef said...Sakai Sushi...we ate from 9-10am..an hour..not bad lah....nothing much to say actually..
besides than..THE FOOD WAS GOOD..!!
anyway, gotta go for HAMM 1 now...bye bye!

anniversary..!! for what? the 300th post?! /XD yeap...though it doesn't make sense but..yeah!
so first of all...this is to those MUSIC STUDENTS who know Ehsan~
yesterday we went for our usual jamming time in Awakening Studio the name does sound a little ironic..anyway i brought andrew there coz we were out in midvalley..so we were doing the Love Me Two Times song..which you all will get to hear on the following week...and he was laughing behind us..on the couch and stewart, our manager..was like..pointing at drew.. horr..! why you laugh?!! and andrew turned and look at Ehsan... you sang very well..it was good.. we were like... and Ehsan was actually like..thank you...but seriously, i think i finally got used to his singing..except when it's on...VERY LOUD..and the amp is right next to me/behind me/ infront of me so on so forth~

anyway..what was i ...ahh...i was in MidValley with drew..and we were looking at phones..eating lotsa junk like..gelato~ and we went to Koong Woh Tong and drank chrysanthemum tea with the..guai ling gou..very long never eat..and he had his Auntie Anne's pretzel...anyway, i gave him a peck on the cheek and... i got electrocuted... seriously, it's that static body electric thingie that you get sometimes....DAMN PAINFUL LORR..!! rawr..!!
anyway, what i realize about Ehsan is...that inside the jamroom or when we're a band doing band stuff..i wanna ...he just makes me so......but outside the band thingie..he's just like any normal foreigner...and he's actually quite easy to communicate with....what a guy..thank goodness i'm not like those old ah sam..or i might go behind an alley and do this..


anyway, to those p.a.t.b.'s who read this...Angeline Lee broke up with Kevin/Calvin/Kelvin what's his name...SO SHOCKING MANN..AFTER 4 YEARS...!!

so yeah...bye bye...!!!

sorry for not updating.. my sister is doing fine now and back home..she even went for tuition today..just that now she's tried other food like noodles besides her porridge oats and stuff..she gets diarrhoea...can honestly tell you..everytime i type the word diarrhoea i have to google it....i just can't seem to remember the spelling for it..!!
bahh..i'm so so tired..went over to suyen's place this morning after work to get my twilight books...then talk talk talk talk... /XD as usual lah... honestly, that girl ALWAYS falls for the wrong guys... ish...

went to visit her just now..bought her a rubix cube..hopefully it can at least keep her busy for awhile before she gets bored of it..2mrw i'll go in the morning and bring my laptop for her to play..if her condition is well, the doctor might discharge her tomorrow..

she's fine today..she's still on drips..but she can take..liquid food..she had tomato soup for lunch and mushroom soup for dinner... /XD so cham..and she has jelly for dessert la.. she has so many incoming phone calls from her classmates.. non-stop...all asking her what happened..
then she complaining it's hot..because under the blanket and all..the air-cond not strong enough.. i was like..better than u freeze to death.. she's already begging to come home..

and she can't bath yet..keep complaining also.. see her like that also kesian.. anyway, we'll see if she's doing fine enough to get outta the hospital 2mrw~

i am now broadcasting live from the MiDi lab in UCSI....where by now at exactly 6.14pm.. we ( seong seong, me, jieying, stephanie, sau kwan and so on...) have successfully finished our MiDi project ON TIME...!! rejoice..!!

just came back from hospital and dinner...my sister is quite energetic for someone who came out from operation..the doctor said her appendix is very long..dunno why..so they're analyzing it now..
then they took out 150ml worth of pus from her..and it leaked out to her intestines when it burst..so the intestines are swollen..and she cannot eat..now she's on drips~
i told her..why u didn't ask the doctor to take the fat out from your stomach area..then u can be thinner..she "TRIED" to laugh..it hurt, she said..
then she showed us the wound..red red patches lorr..then she said when they put the anesthetic she straight away fell asleep..
then my dad said when she came outta the operation room...she was like..waving and all saying..hi daddy..and she was like..finish edi ah?? blurr blurr...

now all that's left is..if there's infection on the inside where the part has been "touched" by the pus...then she will have to be operated again..so just wait~

besides that, she's fine...!! can relax now~

was eating lunch in school..so worried...my mom told me they were checking with ultrasound whether she got appendicitis or not... the lunch time she called..around 2pm..results came out.. her appendix exploded edi..... so she went for operation at 4pm...she came out of it edi..not sure of her condition...gonna see her now...
will update...

thanks for those who stood by me today.. ^^

..mom just called..my sister in the hospital..suspect got appendicitis....worried worried worried...