christmas is over..i celebrated this year's christmas in KL Plaza with many many other sakai ppl there....spraying stuff all over..
had christmas party in church..invited Rina over too..><><
stayed over night in KL Plaza. wahh..with my uncles n aunts n lil cuzzins...the youngest one fell asleep in starbucks while we're nicely drinking coffee n eating ipanema...a cake which is delicious.
den i went shopping with mommy.. and auntie...buy my new year clothes..AND got new shoes n school bag..
the shoe horr..is rm400+..but half price..still rm200. IT'S ALMOST the price of a basketball shoe ...
original price is DOUBLE a basketball shoe but nooooooooo...she dun wanna buy me bball shoe..
sumore that shoe is running shoes...wat's the stupid name ah?? mizuno? i think so...
den got new school bag..TL gehh..damn nice..grey colour...
got buy one bg shirt, bg pants and one jeans from goggles..
only goggles jeans usually long enough for me..
i looked for skirts but MANN i never knew being tall was hard to buy skirts as well..
i thought buy pants hard gehh..but buy skirt also so damn hard..the skirts that look normal on normal girls look shorter on me..so i'm like NO...i dun wanna wear that..so damn short...
I NOE LAHH..YVONNE SUDDENLY WANNA BUY SKIRT..very de big deal...
I'M still that tomboy la..just that..my mom wan me to be feminine ma..let her wish come true ba..
sumore girl shud wear skirt... kononnya..FINE..i admit..i'm turning more girlier...ewwwwwwwwwww..
because of Daniel Lee gua..buy pink shirt..white n pink bg shirt..hey!! it's nice ok!!!
anyway, i like this christmas...it's the way i wanted it to be..talking to the person i never knew that he could be such a nice friends rather den a boyfriend...hahaha..i'm weird rite?? ex bf can become good friends...lantak lahh..i happy u happy..we all happy..celebrate the new year with a new smile
>< :+:PEACE TO MANKIND!!!:+:
I AM BRAINLESS~
PMR results came out yday..and this early morning my mom's student called to say she got straight A's. yes, my mom is a teacher, montessori teacher but she teaches mandarin for higher students..
and so...the girl whom i knew as well...got straight A's without tuition and watever...
den as per usual, every year also i kena...i got scolding again...on my stupidity of not being able to excel in my studies...yehh..i'm stupid, lazy, brainless..*yawn* watever...
~den she went on..saying how i wasted her money on my tuition because i'm so stupid n that i need tuition...den she said..oh..i noe u can do well it's just that you're so lazy to study!!!
all ur teachers say u can..BUT UR SO FREKAING LAZY~!! yare yare...
hey, i've got the brains~ it's just that..RO rocks more than Bio. piano+guitar rule over chem....
and history is just no match for story books~
i've been working on the damn bio assignment for 2 weeks...and my MOM THINKS I'M PLAYING ON THE NET~ make sense? i've been reading every shit about Alam Sekitar for weeks and she thinks...i'm playing =) how sweet~ i'm taking time off GAMES TO WORK ON THIS DUMB SHIT and she doesn't give a damn...in her damn brain it's : computer=games. not computer=work=games=study.
why can't she just believe i'm doing this stupid bio assignment BECAUSE IT'S SCHOOL HOMEWORK not because i wanna play the f*cking computer.....................................
is it that hard to believe i'm actually studying?? is it that hard to believe my best nothing compared to her other students...she says my best is because i'm lucky, my worst is because i'm lazy...
than wat the hell are my brains for?!!! why am i even taking time to think about this when i've got no brains?!!
hmmm....it's a day after the minor surgery..and my left side of the mouth swell into..erm..
as if i'm sucking on a big jawbreaker...it's stupid..and i kinda hurts....haihz...
every now and den, i gotta take the cold pack and put it against the swollen area...
when will it reduce?? my mom said 2mrw..my fren said tomorrow..i say..3 days!! I'M SO DOOMED...but who cares...i'm just going out to the world...who cares how i look???
that's the way, girl!!! ><
and my mom is like..she did a minor surgery that's why her mouth liddat...yare yare yare..
i'm stucked with porridge...but it's cooked by granmama!!! ok..granma...it's nice..
i love her cooking...i dun think i can live without her cooking....haih...it's delicious....mmmm...
now i'm eating..CANDY CANE!!!~ yummy....
bengkak..bengkak..bengkak..
i just had a minor surgery..hmm..it's just the removal of my wisdom tooth..WHICH IS UNDER MY GUM!!!
so i went there..and god..it's so damn expensive..rm600!! aniwei..i was so scared la..
i mean, who isn't? i've nvr gone to anything that requires cutting my body parts or wat so ever~
so i went there..i waited there...and then i went into the room...my mom n the dentist talk talk talk..about the olden days..[ those were the days ]
den it began..i was clenching my fists..den i put them together and squeeze and squeeze....
den he started to put the ubat bius...i'm used to the needle poking into my gum la..
coz i took out 4 teeth to put on my braces.. and den i ate anti biotic, and pain killer...that remidns me..i gotta eat anti biotic again..
and den 3/4 of my mouth went numb..including my tongue...
den i saw it..HE TOOK THE KNIFE...and cut..but of coz i din feel anything...which was the worst part..coz u noe he's cutting but u can't feel it...
den he took that thing and go zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz into my tooth....
den the nurse was like..OK!! it's out..i'm like huh?? coz i was practically closing my eyes..squishing my hands and SHAKING....it was out!!! den he cleaned that area he CUT!!
and he took STRINGs!! AND he began to sow the area..and i saw it..in out in out in out..cut..
ewwwwwwwwwwwww......with blood n all...yuck!!
den it was over...MUAHAHA...i survived!!! ><
and now...the numbness is gone...and pain has not come yet..must be the painkiller...
but i can't open my mouth and have been emotionless for 3 hours...
my mouth is SWOLLEN!! part of it..that area la...so now have to put the cold pack on it.. to reduce the swollen-ness....=D wat an experience..
and he said..most likely, i'll come again to take out the rest of it when they start creating a problem like the tooth that got cabut-ted...at least, i noe it won't hurt...
hahaha....ok ok...bye bye~
hmm...i dunno why i put that picture oso...cute gua...
so....i dun even noe why i'm doing this now?
i'm so not used to writing my journal here ok..
too much emotions and my real self will leak out...
everyone..is acting in this world....everyone is acting in front of friends, parents, teachers and..
your lovers.
u become the person ur friends prefer u to be..
u become the child ur parents want u to be...
u become..the girl/guy ur guy/girl wan u to be..
without noticing..or on purpose..so when do u reveal ur real self...hmm...i think it's when ur alone..
or when ur talking to ur really close friend who doesn't give a shit to who u are...and likes u for who you are...
maybe, u reveal ur true self in ur diary>????
i know how it is to act like that...it's part of my life..and i'll keep acting till i slowly find my real self..
something i really like..not because some else wants me to like..
and slowly, as u grow..u'll find out more about urself and be who u are...
and u noe what..i think..for a teen my age..i think too much of the future problems and future lives of people...i'm.........psycho..... 
hmm...i guess that's it..bye bye
Ragnarok 4 lyfe mann!!! thoes of u out there... 
so what do u have now? ur handphone with no 3G...
ur computer which u think is super slow n not capable off fulfilling ur wishes..
ur dad and mom who clearly don't do as u wish..
ur stupid sister who is always in the way..
gosh..what does she have? SHE GOT THE LATEST DARN PHONE..
HER COMPUTER IS WORTH 3K!!! HER DAD GOT HER A CAR AND HER MOM ALLOWS HER TO DO ANYTHING SHE WANTS!!!
HER SISTER....doesn't exist in her life...
hmmmmmmm.................................................is that wat u think??
we don't see what we have until we have lose it..we only see what other ppl have...
your deepest desire is to have what she has...but when u finally get what she gets...u lose what u
had...and what u had...WAS WAT U WERE ALWAYS SO HAPPY FOR!!
ok wat am i crapping about? i dunno....i feel lost.................................................................
3 more weeks and it's Form 5 for me..den 10 mths...it's SPM....
after SPM...it's college...wat will happen to me? will i successfully get the course that i want to go into..happily get more free time...or die trying to survive in college??? i'm so confused...
so scared...why can't i stay as a Form3 student??
daniel lee chee hun...YOU RAWK!!
if you were given a chance to stay as a kid...whether it is during ur primary school time...or secondary school time..just stay as a kid....or a teen..
would you ever...miss that chance???
growing up..means growing responsibilities..and sorrow..including problems to face...
growing up....you learn to have feelings...and those feelings...could bring even more sorrow and sadness....
growing up...means you've gotta work..to support your living..
growing up..you gotta take responsibility of your life....
that's not the only thing...i may not be able to see it yet..i'm just nearing that stage....
and i'm afraid...i don't wanna grow up...i don't want the feelings and responsibility...
who doesn't wanna stay as a kid?? but it can never..ever..happen..
